internet nite owl

you think people who stay up til dawn do it because they're "artists" or they are depressed types and staying up all night seems romantic in some way, and i know that people stay up all night doing things like writing or reading or drawing, because i'm friends with people like that, but i think i'm doing it wrong because / i stay up til dawn so that i have an excuse for sleeping all day tomorrow and not doing things i need to because i wouldn't do them anyway and i will sleep til one anyway but 'maybe' i'll get something done tonight, if i just stay up. but all that happens is you get a back ache from slouching on the couch and clinging to your laptop like it's your best friend. and you say to yourself, 'oh I'll watch a Wes Anderson film' and I'll annotate that article but actually you refresh facebook every two minutes and watch criminal minds-esque repeats on tv and you get really hungry / but you shouldn't eat late at night and you shouldn't eat any more because you always eat too much,\ and you know you can't say anything because it's not like anyone's forcing you to do this and you write a blog post about it because you have nothing nothing nothing interesting to say  //
and always you've been scared that people will find out how not interesting you are, might as well make it apparent to anyone who still has illusions about you